Annoyed with Myself

I annoy myself by how much I get annoyed with others! I am so sinful and mean and selfish and prideful and you can add any other words that go along the same concept to that list.

Lord mold me, shape me, use me. Take out this heart of stone and replace it with a heart of flesh. Only by Your work can this be done and not of me. Thank you for Allison and her holding me accountable. Thank you for this summer. Thank you that I'm going away. If You don't will that I go, make it known now, Lord. Thank you for Your good and perfect will.

Vegetables

I want to eat food with some fat or protein in it. My hands are really cold. Freezing. But they are skinny again. I think I love that feeling more than just being skinny myself. I love elegant slender hands and I want them. My hands are relatively close right now. My ring doesn't fit. Woo-hoo. Its my purity ring so eventually I'll trade it out for my wedding ring. :)

Fireproof

Love the movie!

I want to get married but it's not time and there's no man...so there...the Lord has other plans for right now...

Lord, I ask you to fireproof my marriage even now. I pray that You put Your protection around my husband. Give him the strength and diligence to get through any struggles right now. May he seek You with all that is within him.

Retreat and Cupcakes

These are long overdue picture from the rainbow cupcakes I made the other day and the Sisters of Faith Retreat.

Green Poop?!?

Yes, because of all the vegetables I have been eating and all those shakes I've been drinking, my bowel movements have definitely been a forest green color.

WEIRD! Sorry just had to post that because I thought it was pretty interesting.

My To-Do List

Before school starts, I have a good amount of things to get done. Today I was able to get the five loads of laundry done: one is still in the dryer. I had a rainbow of laudry...

I got that done today. The list only continues for tomorrow....

--Running
--Read Bible
--Clean out desk
--Clean out folders, organize and label for this semester
--Finish inputting MATH 180 homework into planner
--Go to bank, deposit money
--Pluck eyebrows, wax mustache
--Shave toes, legs
--Face masque
--Clean out drawers
--Make pile of stuff to be moved to be moved to Chelsea's
--Do math homework

Ah, will it ever end. Eventually, it will but for now I can take comfort in Proverbs and in the fact that the Proverbs 31 wife is always working. There is a time for work and a time for rest. Soli deo Gloria!

Bucket of Cardboard Stars

I need to write this down before I forget it. It is something that I think I need to dwell on a bit more because even if it wasn't the Lord's speaking to my heart, it had a message that I really need to ponder.

On Wednesday night, I had a dream.

It was cold outside. It was snowing. I'm not sure where we were but something terrible was happening and thus most of the town was gathered together at a local grocery store. I wasn't real involved in the debating but something was wrong and thus the appropriate response action was being discussed. I remember feeling quite childish and at the grocery store, I unpacked my little tin bucket. It was filled with cardboard stars about three inches wide maybe four. They were all different shapes and colors. I repacked them gently. I took great care in putting one on top of the other within in my colorful bucket. Then I put the top on and the scene switched.

We moved to a house. Things started disappearing. Furniture, appliances, built-in units. The spackling on the walls disappeared and then the dry wall. Then insulation. Pieces of the roof disintegrated and it was cold. We tried to move to a safer place within the home of sorts but such a place could not be found. We were climbing up some stairs that were simply wood. I was left behind with a few others because I was unable to climb the stairs.

I panicked a lot because somehow I knew that everything would disappear eventually except my little tin of stars. I wasn't worried about that leaving. It was all that was left.